Oh how I do miss my mama!? She was sweeter too me than anybody else was on this planet earth!? Now that I'm all alone!? What should I do with myself!? I often think think think too oneself this???You meant everything too me then and now!?

I am completely lost without you dear mama!?I sometimes cry for no reason too?! Since you went away with the Lord???!!I'm so very very jealous of those angels now because they get too be around you now all the time too!?

Oh why oh why did them angels have to take you away from me??? If I could I would of pleaded with Jesus and those angels?You know I would of in a heartbeat???????? I only pray that you aren't worried about me in heaven?? Since a good mama never seems to stop worrying about there children??!!

I'm living in a cold,isolated,unkind world without you mama?That's so so cruel to me now that you've left it?! I'm now left too fend for myself now?! Now that you've gone away too heaven now!? I'm left without a father too!? Since he died too at a young age too?!

Oh how I do miss my mama and my daddy too?!They are no longer here too help me figure this so so unfriendly world out now?! I pray too my heavenly father please take care of my mama too??!! I know one day we will all meet again in heaven??!

I remember the way we were?! I remember you and all your silly ways too???How happy here on earth we were together too?! Oh the good times we had and the bad times we shared too?! I only pray that those memories of us will never fade away?!I never would have thought that God would take you away from me so soon!!?

How only God knows when are time here on earth is up??! I have to say that only God knows best and why????? It still hurts though?! I must admit it though?!Since I truly loved my dear mama too?! I can't help but too remember whenever I was a kid?!

How I still remember mama and how I was her little tail?! That followed her around where ever she would go?! I simply wanted to be around you for no reason at all ?! I remember how you taught me how to cook,dress,count,my ABC'S, and about God too?!

Even though I was the baby out of the three kids you had?! I know I was the closest one to you too?! I want you to know dear mama? That I never minded taking care of you when you were old and grey all by myself?! Since you did the same for me when I was just a little kid too?!

I can never repay you for all the things you did for me growing up!?Yet I surely appreciate it dear mama!!?I now consider you and me even with out no regrets at all???!! My one prayer is that you will watch over me from up above as my guardian angel should?!!

LOVE

I believe love is what's missing in this cruel,unloving, unforgiving,unjust world we live in today?! I must admit it that I have never been in love with anyone of this world before yet dear Lord???! I have roamed this lifetime for over forty five years and plus???!! I have never met love before not even once or almost????!

I may have bumped into them once or twice but I have never met there acquaintance before?! Oh how it does hurt me some too watch everyone else fall in love?! Seeing everyone else in a happy relationship but not me yet dear Lord???!

Some folks have a product of there love which is children?! Other people just have each other??!!I even watch the animals reproduce too???They must too have there own form of love too!!??I'm starting too wonder to who this person is too??? They call love is too??

Will I ever meet them in this lifetime or will I keep passing them by dear God????Did I ever stand love up before? Did I ever miss out on there invite before???Oh how that is a most most perplexing mystery too me now that I think about it dear Lord???Love?????

As I think,think,think back too onesself???? I'm starting too believe he or she just doesn't exist in my case?????I know these are puzzles, mysteries, and riddles that everyone starts too wonder or solve??? I mostly wonder why why why not me dear Lord yet???Is everybody else simply lieing too me about love??

Isn't love the most valuable thing on this planet we call earth???!!Its just like gold too me now that I don't possess it????Its more precious than diamonds, money, and rubees I thought?!! Now that I'm so so very very old now without love in my life????????

Its the one thing missing for me that I must admit too???Some wealthy people that seem too have it all still don't possess it L.O.V.E???????? I believe that there is someone for everyone when it comes down too love??? Thats what my dear sweet mama told me once upon a time before dear God!!!!!!I just haven't met my perfect match yet dear Lord maybe?????!!!!

Now that I am a lot wiser,smarter, and clued in about love?!!!!I admit it I can be but also others too damn picky,slow,clueless or scared of falling in love with somebody else dear God??!! Some people are afraid of falling for the wrong person too dear God?! What should one do dear God about love??I wonder??

Some people simply believe that believing in love is the same thing as believing in God???? I don't know whose right or wrong in this matter???? All that I know for sure is God is love??!!Since were created in his image?! We therefore desire love and all it has too bestow upon us dear Lord??Love??

In fact in the back of my mind I can't help but wonder why,why,why not me dear Lord yet??? Maybe it could be true????!!Are we all just fools looking for love????? If it doesn't really exist????? Oh let me give my head a rest!!!!!!????

Some folks believe that you must give love too get love??!!!Other folks say you get what you give in this lifetime????!!! Some folks have given love and afterwards they are in such great great pain afterwards??!! Why why why is this so so so sad ???!That the one you loved never loved you too begin with too????!!

Some folks may wanna put a bullet in there head after realizing that the one they loved never loved them back??!!!Some folks may want too murder you for this reason too ?!Some folks may want revenge on you for that reason too dear Lord??Some folks may start popping pills just too numb this pain away too?!!Oh dear God how truely sad sad sad this is????!!!Love??!!!

I am most perplexed dear Lord at whose wrong and whose right concerning love dear Lord?????????

On the matter of it all? love?????? It's just too exhausting for me too think about right now at whom this masked person or villain could be???Love??????????

By Desiree Michelle Hinkson 🤔😁😇

For Valentine's Day!?