I dont remember much from the worst of it. I remember the sickness. I remember the body aches. I remember the tremors. I remember waking up and starting a fight with my husband. Id beg him and try to bribe him because I wanted a drink at 8 a.m so I didn't loose last nights dinner, if I even ate. That man dealt with more burden those days than anyone should ever have to. All because he beleived in a heald me Hell I used any excuse back then. Im sick, im sad, I need it. I have bi polar, I was traumatized as a small child and i was using the bottle to mask it and not very cleverly or with any grace. Then one day the bill came due. My arrest came......